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Does it ever end

I have now not worked for 4 months. Today is a very glum day for me because it is just a reminder of how long it has been and how rubbish I feel in still not finding a job. I know there are people out there who have not had a job in years with a friend of mine struggling to find anything for 3 years but as it goes on, the harder it gets to try and keep a smile or the idea of hope. 

Today there are so many young people trying to just get on the ladder that the bottom rungs of the ladder has too much competition while the top roles are pretty empty. 

What is worse is how my degree seems to mean nothing as my boyfriend gets up every morning to go to his high paid job having no qualifications what so ever! He doesn’t have any GCSEs, Alevels or a degree but earns more money than most people his age. In fact I only know of two people and they both got hand picked at uni for very high stressed jobs in fiance. 

So here I am getting over another rejection after an interview from a job I know I would have been incredible at and being reminded of how long I have been out of a job. 

What have I achieved in 4 months then? Well 6 interviews and over 150 applications or e-mails to companies and no job. I have managed to redesign my website, and lost all of my work for the last 2 years after my computer managed to corrupt my hard drive making updating my portfolio even harder.

I haven’t managed to achieve anything outside of my job hunt either as my life has just become the same week over and over again with the occasional family event or interview. I haven’t managed to do any paintings, make any jewellery or learn any new songs, but in fact lost some of my range due to lack of practice.

In fact the only successes I have had is turning 26 and moving to Brighton and they both don’t really have much to do with me.

So here I am at this moment having lost all of my drive and hope in this seemingly never ending search just to have a role in this world and ability to pay my own way through it.

I am even trying to just get together enough to go down stairs to check the post, go eat breakfast (though now it would be lunch) or leave this sofa but I have to some how. 

I know I am lucky to so many people out there that have been doing this for years, those that having nothing, those that are stressing with oppression, abuse, poverty, pain or the lose of a loved one yet it is so hard finding drive any more.

Life hasn’t been easy though as you could easily use me and my family as the basis for Eastenders for the next 10 years. 

So what now? No idea but I guess the first thing is to check if my amazon packages have arrived (and I hope something has as that would be a good way to cheer me up) and then start cleaning the flat. 



I have been quite quite this year as it has been constantly busy since New Years. In the last 3 months I have had to deal with a story that went international, a new line manager causing more work than help, losing my job, my partner losing his job, interviews and having the prospect of having to move to Brighton.

It is so hard to keep up with blogging, gaming and other activities that are so easy to enjoy when your job is not on the line or when you have lost it so it is easy to see why I haven’t been blogging.

It has been a very stressful year and it looks to continue for the next few months while we move and deal with a number of family related events or commitments.

In this time of financial concern for everyone there are few jobs or opportunities so I am still struggling along with so many other young people.

What is worrying is how in 2025 we will have the flip of this where there will not be enough people for the number of jobs that will need to be filled but there will still be a lot of my age group that will have little experience.

Only recently in October I hired a Designer and there were so many applicants that applied with over 12 year of designing experience for a part time low paid design position! There were art directors for well known magazines, studio leads and designers of house hold brands for a job were they would only get £11,000 a year as an in house designer with no real progression or design respect.

That is how this is effecting the young people as they are up against highly skilled individuals who have been made redundant. I am up against these people now as I hunt for a job so you can see why I am struggling!

I only graduated from university in 2010 and I keep only seem to manage to get temporary contracts rather than a secure job like a lot of my fellow graduates. What makes it worse is how I see terrible work that others are being paid to do while I struggle to get hired.

I can’t look at the Hospiscare media any more because it makes me so annoyed with how badly some of my designs have been warped or ruined. Just before I left the charity I redesigned the art direction of the newsletter to make it more interesting and just generally well designed. The last two copies of the newsletter however have ruined the style ignoring basic yet important design rules.

So hopefully in the next few weeks, as well as moving to Brighton, I will also hopefully have myself a new job and will be able to blog again!

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